Manifesting My Future

I am a firm believer in the fact the thoughts become things! So you have to focus on the good ones. I am not sure if I was always doing that. I mean I would say that I wanted a relationship. But then I tended to think about how the others had all gone wrong. How everyone always wanted to "just be friends" But then I met someone that made me change my mind. I thought wow this could work, I finally found someone great! But he was hesitating the whole time, I chose to ignore many things that I knew were not right for me, just because I just really really wanted to have that connection. And wouldn't you know it, he told me he just wanted to be friends. My friends all saw it wasn't going to work, why didn't I? But it didn't matter, it gave me hope. It sparked that feeling of magical new beginnings. It made me focus more on what could be. And then I think it found me this time! So that great hugger I was talking about a couple posts ago.. Well it continues to go well.. wow its going well enough to talk about it in two posts!
It has been so so long, I don't even think I even knew it could be like this. There are no hesitations this time. He is totally into me! And all my friends see it too! And it feels wonderful and refreshing! I don't know how many times I read that freakin book! "he's really not into you" I would keep telling myself... if he was he would call, want to spend time with you, not be able to get enough of you. I was starting to think that book was lame! Could everything they say in this book be true. Well I didn't settle (well I guess I almost did there for a second, but I am sure I would have figured it out in due time) This time I am with someone who calls, comes over even though we were just together all day, cooks for me, opens the car door for me, compliments me all the time, he holds my hand, and is always massaging some part of me when ever I am around.
This time I feel adored, beautiful, wanted, and special. All my friends can not get over how awesome he is, and how we are together! It really feels right! I can be myself with him, and I can say the sweet things I think because he says sweet things to me all the time. I don't feel like I am being too much! We like a lot of the same things, yet we have our own hobbies as well. All the things I ever asked for in a partner are there with Liam. He makes plans for the future.. He plans out what he is going to cook for me the following week. He thanks me for coming over and sleeping next to him. We made a promise to never take each other for granted. We carve pumpkins, watch movies, have game nights, go fly kites, he loves to talk, and is engaging. He remembers that I don't like spicy foods to just name one! He tells me that his face hurts from smiling so much from being around me.
We feel like we can just kiss for hours.... and we do :)
I have met my cuddling match!!
He loves the outdoors, but actually likes them the way I do. Hiking, snowshoeing, cross country skiing. So he para glides. Can I deal with this? He said to me "I'm a package deal... I glide" I said I know. And I love that he has a hobby. But last weekend when I went with him, all I could imagine was him jumping off that mountain and falling, and my life becoming a best selling movie! Everyone tells me I should write a book. Well I want to write the ending right now....
And they lived happily ever after.... not she found mr. right and then he fell! Why do I even have thoughts like this. He thought it was so cute that I was worries about him. But I did have a best friend die rock climbing. And then another good friend almost die in an avalanche he survived but the man with him did not. It is way close for home to me. Then again it seems peaceful, magical and delicious. I could actually see myself flying off the sides of mountains! Or would I be too scared?? It was on my list to do while I was in NZ and I never got around to it. That is where he tried it and fell in love with it. Funny how things work right. I look forward to getting to be with him every night. I look forward to the plans we have made with each other for this winter. I look forward to the possibilities of this amazing man... and I really want to have a happy ending to my book!

tell em!!

I don't think people compliment each other enough! I like to tell people they are awesome! Or I like your shirt.. something! I love the people in my life.. and all around me! I like interacting with people I don't know! I think it would be a great idea to try to compliment someone at least once a day. It makes you feel good, and the other person too! I went to this haunted trail thing on Friday and I had a blast interacting with all the students dressed up to scare me! At one point one of them broke character and said "i like you!" I giggled the whole time, and actually even screamed a few times too! It takes something to be able to let go and be scared. And it takes something to take the time to interact with people you don't know. They could be really awesome and fun and turn out to be your best friend! I hear in the south random people talk to you all the time!
Then this morning when i was getting gas, i noticed that the tattooed guy in front of me still had shaving cream behind his ear from shaving his head this morning.... i thought i should tell him.. but then i didn't!! what example am i leading for myself here? Then again it was 630am so gimme a break!

I am right were I am suppose to be!

I really am doing something right! I feel so at home here, so at ease, so excited for everyday of my life!
Last week I had the morning off and went down to the Showbox to pick up tickets for all my friends, for the up coming show Dark Star Orchestra! I walked over to Pike Place Market.. I never just go there and walk around. It rocks! All the fresh fruits, flowers and fish! I bought myself some of each! I got in my car and started to get this overwhelming feeling of happiness. I am really suppose to be here. I am living a life I have created, and I love it! Good things always happen to me. The people who surround me are amazing and wonderful and bring me joy.
Then it started to pour rain in the middle of the sunny afternoon... And I laughed.. Oh seattle! I searched for the rainbow..

The weekend came, and the show I had gotten tickets for was so much fun!! I was surrounded by at least 30 friends all dancing, smiling, and connecting. This is so right, this is so wonderful! Then I hear this guy asking my friend Nick... "who is this girl? I see her everywhere, she knows everyone and she seems awesome!" "HI I'm Stephie! I'm a Hugger!" This hug was extra super warm and cozy and comfortable.... "I'm Liam and you have been following me all summer" he said with a grin... HA! for once I have actually never noticed this guy! Someone noticed me first! That feels really nice.... Our joking interactions continued throughout the night, and I felt that this guy might be really intrigued by me.. hee hee that's exciting and new!
The next thing I know the show was over I am outside in the middle of a group hug because this group wants me to change my plans and go camping tomorrow.. A geological field trip, paragliding, campfires, smores... Wow.. give up my plan huh? Change what I do all the time..
Well... I am a sucker for nature. I am a sucker for new friends that give really amazing hugs! And it was a chance to spend some time with Nick and Laurie.. I really love those two and never see them enough. So 4 hours later I woke up and started packing to be picked up to go camping!

Mt Saint Helen was amazing!! Out in all of her full glory. The sky was blue the sun was out.
I found myself in a slew of amazing conversations. I think it feels really good when someone is genuinely interested in you. And it is even better when you are just as interested in them. Oh but it gets even better when you find you have so so much in common. It is even better when that someone who gives the best hugs ever feels like an old friend even though this is the first day you have ever spent together.
He is into paragliding (to say the least) So we all went to a launch sight. They knew they couldn't fly but they kited.. I was in awe, so amazing and beautiful.
It was the perfect day, I didn't want to be anywhere else!
Campfire, smores, great food, wine.... ahhhh and the chatting about everything...
I got to sleep next to him in his bus! It has heat, Sweet!! We chatted ourselves to sleep, and chatted ourselves awake... The best kind of sunday morning is laying in bed talking for an hour before you start the day.. don't you think?
I got to cook everyone blueberry pancakes for breakfast. I really like cooking for people, I like it when people around me are happy, fed, and feeling fine! Every time I make blueberry pancakes I think of Taylor. He came into my camp at string summit oh so many years ago, when we first met, and made us all blueberry pancakes.
My past is so intertwined with my present.
It must mean I am on the right path.

I am meeting the people that I am manifesting myself to meet.
I am making lasting connections, and new friends all the time.
I am right where I want to be, doing the things I want to do.
Looking forward to my days with hope and a soul that is smiling!

It is important to remember...
You will never get to do the things you want to do, by doing things you don't want to do!
So just do what you want to do!


I was just going to write about my pike market day.. guess I had more to say!
Ok back to sewing my Halloween costume!

Everything you ever lost

Imagine..... You woke up one morning and there on your front step was a box... A big big box! And inside was everything you have ever lost... EVER! I mean everything!  Jewelry, papers, keys, clothes,  MONEY! I was driving to work and thought to myself... I used to have a drill, and electric drill with all the different bits.. How could I misplace that.  When I moved to Seattle 4 years ago? What about those snowboard pants too, and that shirt I loved and wore all the time.  Where does all this stuff go? How do we loose stuff. Do we have too much stuff that we can't even keep track of what we have anymore. Yeah I think so! But for a moment it is kinda fun to think about what might be in that box, photos, old memories, times forgotten and lost.. then re-found.  I am going to try to have less stuff, buy less, loose less, and keep track of it all...